Touch Prose Randomness

I am fascinated by touch.  That tantalizing tickle of your electrons and mine playing and giggling against one another.  I imagine every individual ray of sunlight warming my body as if I were a mug of tea resting between your palms.  Fabric and skin are the greatest tactile pleasures.  Satins slipping under my weathered grasp and corduroy soft and textured.  But water.  Water is everything.  Weightless, grip-less, painless, ecstasy.  

Broke in Black

goddamn the boinging

synthesized accordions of gawth

escape from the 80’s and into my fridge

turing up their noses at my leftover lasagna and mango “frou frou” soda

gourmet goddesses lounge in bed in the dark braless

no one can see stretch marks if there’s no light

to reflect the glittering, torn swaths of scar tissue

my tongue is burnt by my impatience 

lasagna vs. microwave, the loser is my halitosis 

I wish Sam would stop sending me telegrams

this budget doesn’t support anything except for textbooks

and boots

and expeditions 

tunneling through mazes of pre-worn pre-owned pre-shat-in garments

end goal: black velvet anything

the pleasure of self-mockery is reserved for old women 

lounging on purple couches

chuckling at pictures in which their eyeliner runs away from the heat

I want to age gracefully

and be one of those classy dames 

where you can tell, just from one look

she has enjoyed her life

she probably shelled out the cash and saw Peter Murphy

before the old bat finally keeled over

instead of ho-humming back and forth, until it was too late

and I was broke anyway

Pissing on Trees

Did you know?

These Eucalyptus trees are propelled upward 

by piss and acid rain

I have to piss.

Can you wait?

I have to piss. I'm gonna go find a tree.

Just don't get caught

It's friggin' freezing out side and where I'm standing isn't much warmer so I'll come out with you

And suddenly through the powers of suspended disbelief you are a bouncer staring at my chest and we are discussing douches

Not the vagina  kind because no douche will ever touch my lady lips because my mommy is a chemist and I've told you that a million times and she told me the shit they put in those things

There are euro-douches and Marin-douches and terra douche-a and doucheron; and novadouche and mill valledouche and douche city.

But what if douches were transformers and then we'd have Megadouche!!!!!  

I have to pee now from all the cherry coke thanks for the extra cherries or maybe you just like how when I pucker my lips to slowly separate the juicy chemical fruit imposter from the stem you're imagining that I'm taking the head of your dick into my mouth and tonguing each dip and rise of your shaft . . . or I could just be eating a cherry and working the cash register and shivering because it's cold out

That works too, right? 

Software Incompatibilities

You do not want my body

You long to press your mind against my mind 

and 

share with me wonderful auroras 

of brain chemistry 

and 

encoded imagination

I want to be one with your 

body

I want to share the things I cannot verbalize with my thick and cloying tongue

My mind runs a copy of you

Like a stolen copy of Mac OSX

In my mind 

You are fucking me

In my mind 

You are buried between my legs 

You are fucking spelunking with your dick 

and 

OH GAWD you can be the Indiana Jones to my Lost Arc any time!

In reality

You are running Windows Vista

and

I am tired of your screen saver

That pastoral farmland gets plowed more often than I do

We seem to have encountered

A software incompatibility

Mac has a conversion program

There’s probably an app for that

But damn you Windows Vista

You just keep rejecting me

and i cannot sleep

and i cannot sleep

because this brain is creating problems like a factory 

that is churning out guns that kill people

but instead this brain is creating problems 

problems that kill peace

and i cannot sleep

because when i shut my eyes i see things 

that no one believes for the sake of not wanting to believe

my nightmares are repetitive, comforting

my nightmares do not exist

and i cannot sleep

worries creating fear creating problems creating hurt

everybody would like true honesty

true honesty is not telling

honesty includes being honest to oneself 

i am honest to myself

and i cannot sleep

i like a child dismembering a doll

tear my world asunder 

this leg represents peace through silence

it has gone first

this leg represents peace through dependency

it has gone second

this arm represents peace through obedience 

it has been ripped away

this arm represents peace through self-objectification

it is still fighting

and i cannot sleep

So your girlfriend’s not Barbie

So your girlfriend’s not Barbie 

buy the book

dude, sucks for you

mine got lipo last week

laser hair removal

you could just sell her ugly clothes

upgrade to the new model

make her wear a bra to bed

10 Ways to Start The Diet Talk

How Her Genetics May Make You Fat

you can’t fuck her brain

try turning the lights off

give it as a present

remind her what you could be having

dude, she’s only getting older

hint

Is She Worth Changing?

45000781 or My Bones Want to Tell You Something

skeletal sample 45000781

dig site “verissimo valley”

caucasian

pelvic structure indicative of female

northern Scandinavian influence seen in structure of facial area

estimated height at around 5’4”

estimated weight 130 - 155 pounds

cultural factors must be considered before weight at death is agreed upon

age can be pinpointed at between 18 and 20 years

as indicated by nearly complete fusion of the epiphysis and length of bones

multiple hairline fractures on the phalanges and olphalanges

sign of large scale trauma to left tibia and patella

telltale scrapings point to surgery of some sort

reconstructive?

minor trauma to right patella

similar cause or compensation of the trauma to the left?

scar site at top right anterior of cranial structure

possible laceration and/or fall from some height

multiple stress fractures to the spine

possibly caused by repeated bending and pressure from odd angles

unknown cause

possible signs of carrying heavy weight, such as a pack, for extended periods of time

unlikely given found location

pelvic spread indicates 45000781 has given birth 

extent of spread points to a vaginal delivery

abnormal 

considering cesarian deliveries assumed to be norm due to average socio-economic state of other remains discovered in general area of dig site

state of bone at approximated time of spread indicates the subject was a between ages 13 and 16

younger than normative for possible age of origin and location of remains when found

wear to left carpal bones and joints indicates 45000781 favored left hand

anomaly could explain increased wear on left leg joints; favoring dominant side

pattern of wear to pelvic, spinal, and carpal bones leads to theory 

that 45000781 sat stationary for extended periods of time

note: investigate possible occupations

hair samples show repeated bleaching and dying with artificial pigments

jewelry found with 45000781

mostly silver

1 - necklace - intricate scroll work - watch parts w/ some small gold gears - unidentified jewel accent

45000781 appeared to have had a piercing of the nasal cartilage

possible tribal or subcultural affiliations

1 - captive bead ring - hematite bead - steel ring

Theory: 45000781 had three piercings on each ear lobe

Evidence:

2 - silver lengths of linked chains on ear-hooks - spiked ball detail attached to base of link of chain

2 - garnet - post - silver stud backing

2 - small silver bat - post - silver stud backing

no conclusions yet made from jewelry

study pending

no rings noted

negates theory that 45000781 was engaged in western practice of “marriage”

clothing too deteriorated to estimate socio-economic status

fiber analysis pending

foot coverings found at dig site, close to body

possibly removed after burial

motive unknown

classified as “boots”

constructed from unidentified dried, treated, cattle hide

secured with long, woven strips of synthetic fiber

possible theory: 

choice of foot coverings reflected existence of personal choice in clothing

possible tribal or subcultural affiliation

as yet unproven due to lack of evidence

known: 

no evidence of specific foot coverings as necessary for sedentary occupation as assumed by skeletal wear

Update:

second skeleton found in close proximity to 45000781

pelvic structure indicates male

epiphysis on sternal end of clavicle partially fused

complete fusion of epiphysis on end of long bones

age estimated between 20 and 25

no known relation as of yet

more evidence pending